Monday, June 26, 2006


For the past three weeks, I have been in a rut; well a rut is not correct. Actually, I have been quite happy and content which puts me in a bad place if I want to continue my social skills. How do I push myself out of this mindset? I don’t know the answer. I have even held back on escalating my sarges, because I’m content.

Before there was a hunger, granted that was brought on by a frustration of not knowing what and how to do improve my social skills or basically kill the AFC. Now, that I have gotten out of that mindset. What is the step? Is it simply to continue sarging until it’s all I am? I would love to do that be unfortunately, I have to work for a living. I wonder how much easier it is for younger guys especially those who are in high school and college, because they can easily carve out much more free time.

Or is it because that innate sexual drive has been taken away from by HBSharon, BMexico, and HBBlackberry? I think that the no masturbation diet pushes really has an effect on your mentally, like it some how triggers your instincts drive you towards your goals versus your mind (or whatever it is called Right Brain vs. Left Brain).

I have read so much, listen to so many podcasts and audiobooks, and watch tons of videos over the past year. And that stuff ain’t cheap! I finally decided to read one more book and that’s The Game. Once, I’m done with that I will no longer send money except for to take a live seminar, maybe.

So back to braking myself out my contentitis, Style has a 30 day challenge coming up soon. I think I’m going participate more so to improve my skills than anything else. I remember watching one of Mystery videos and he said “when I see a 10, I get nervous. I get nervous because I know I’m going in”. At the time, I was thinking, “Wow, I can’t wait until I get to that level”. But now, I thinking I want that skill level, but do have to blow up my happiness for it.

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